Totals & goals

Well as of today I weighed in at 203 pounds. I've lost 46 pounds so far. I'm only 4 pounds away from my birthday goal (b-day is June 6th). I know I might not make it, I could be 1 pound away, but I'm not going to let that get me down. I'll never put that weight back on, EVER! I refuse do be that miserable again.

At this point I know I still have a long way to go, but I've come half way to my final goal of 160 pounds. I have 43 pounds left to lose. Only 18 more pounds until I'm no longer considered "Obese" - thats such an ugly word! Being considered "Over-weight" isn't very nice either, but I'd so rather hear those words than "Obese" & the stereo types that go with it.

I'm working hard toward my goal weight, and yeah there will probably be ups & downs. Especially as I gain muscle, but in the end that muscle will help me continue to lose weight & maintain the body I'm building. I know I've gained quiet a bit of muscle over the past few months, and that has slowed my numbers down on the scale, but I know how much my body is changing. So in the end, all that matters is that I get to my goal.

Changes

Through this journey I've changed so much. And I'm not just talking about the physical changes. I no longer feel that the gym is a bother. I look forward to going to the gym & getting sweaty. I feel weird on my rest day when I don't go to the gym. Working out can be fun, yeah its hard work, but its so worth it. Weight loss can be slow as hell, but while you may not be losing weight you are changing your body & your health for the better. It doesn't take as long to build healthy habits as you may think, stick with it for a while & you'll see.

I did well with my first trainer session this last week and I'm looking forward to my session tomorrow. I knew that I needed some expert advice & guidance. Its a little expensive but well worth it in the end. I wont need a trainer forever. Who knows, once I go back to school for nutrition & I'm fit, maybe I'll become a personal trainer & dietitian. Who would have thought the fat girl in high school, middle school & elementary would even think about that as a career option. My sense of self is starting to change, I'm starting to not think of myself as that nerdy fat girl any more.

6 pounds to go before June 6th then it will a very happy 26th birthday, indeed!

I Survived!

Well today was the first training session with my new trainer. It went really well. There was one move that he wanted me to do that we had to modify because I wasn't able to do it on the balance pad, balanced leg lifts, but I was able to do it on a bench. We did about 40 or 50 of those. Trust me my abs were burning.

We also did a lot of work on the cable machine. Standing rows, 180 degree turns and some other things that I'm not sure what they are called.

All in all, he kicked my butt till I couldn't do any more, but I still felt great... gitty even. Can hardly wait till Monday when I have my next session with the "Silver Fox".

I've lost 44 pounds so far, and have 45 more to go. Just about half way there.
Go me!

"Silver Fox" - Before The Beating

Tomorrow at 11:00AM I go to my first training session with my personal trainer, Bill, whom I like to call the "Silver Fox" because of his long silver locks. Hes a handsome older man - But don't let that fool you into believing hes going to take it easy on me. He has that devilish look on his face that he could be one nasty S.O.B. in the training room. That & the remark he said about getting excited when he gets to train young healthy people & beat the snot out of them... hahaha... what have I gotten myself into.

But seriously, I'm very excited to be training with Bill. He seems like an awesome guy & I really think he can push me to my limits and I'm hopeful that I'll see great results. I'm almost half way there in this journey called weight loss. The journeys been long & my progress has been slow, but I'm not turning back. I have lost 43 pounds and I have 46 left to lose to reach my goal of 160 pounds. Bill seems very confident that my goal is attainable. And with his help I will get there sooner than I would on my own with no guidance.

Wish me luck!

Kickin' It Up!

I really kicked it up a notch today. I did a 10 minute warm-up on the elliptical trainer, 30 minutes of weights, and 30 minutes on the recumbent bike. I feel that I did really well today, and the weights are starting to feel lighter, so I'll probably have to increase them soon.

I lost 1 more pound, so now I'm at 207 lbs. Its taken me so long to get to where I'm at, but its so worth it. Adding years to my life, stamina & I'm happier. Its still hard to be happy at this weight, but I"m a lot happier than when I was 249 pounds. I can do things that I couldn't do before and it gives me a sense of accomplishment.

I really love this picture, because its all so true. Its hard to stay fat & hate yourself. And yeah weight loss is no walk in the park, but I would much rather be upset that I didn't lose a few pounds than be angry with myself for gaining several. I hated when I could no longer fit into clothes because I had gotten too fat. That was one of the worst feelings. I don't think I've found myself yet, and I have a long way to go, but no matter how hard this ride called weight loss tries to buck me off I'm not stopping, and if I fall then I'll get back on again & again.

Doing another great workout tomorrow & weighing in. Hope I see some great numbers on the scale this week.