6 Weeks

I have six weeks to go before my mini goal is due. That's six weeks to lose at least 10 more pounds. I've really been slacking lately. But starting Monday I'm putting my gym shoes back on & I am literally going to sweat my ass off. I'm going to make another doctors appointment to get more blood work ordered to figure out why I feel so tired, even if I eat right & sleep well. Maybe my iron is low?? I'm just fed up with being tired. I need to lose this weight. Yeah I've lost 40 pounds & I've been able to keep it off, but I'm no where near being finished. I'm not done yet & I'm not going down without a fight. My weight has held me back for too long.

When I was a kid I was SO shy, I rarely spoke to ANYONE. I've come out of my shell more & more over the years, but I'm tired of being the fat girl. The fat friend, the heavy one, or the chubby one. I want to be a beautiful woman, mother & wife who's not afraid to strike up a conversation & make new friends.

And once Haden starts school I want to go back to school for Nutrition, I want to inspire others to change their life styles.. To be healthy, and to be conscious what it is that they are putting into their bodies. What chemicals in the foods are doing to their body & their mind. That we don't have to "Live to Eat". That we can heal our selves of heart disease & diabetes and many more illnesses by changing our lifestyle & diet, not with "miracle" drugs with horrible side effects that for the most part just put a bandage on the problem.

I just need to wake up & smell the coffee is what I'm saying. Keep working towards my goals. And meanwhile if I can even inspire one other person to help them self, then its all worth it to me.