Through this journey I've changed so much. And I'm not just talking about the physical changes. I no longer feel that the gym is a bother. I look forward to going to the gym & getting sweaty. I feel weird on my rest day when I don't go to the gym. Working out can be fun, yeah its hard work, but its so worth it. Weight loss can be slow as hell, but while you may not be losing weight you are changing your body & your health for the better. It doesn't take as long to build healthy habits as you may think, stick with it for a while & you'll see.
I did well with my first trainer session this last week and I'm looking forward to my session tomorrow. I knew that I needed some expert advice & guidance. Its a little expensive but well worth it in the end. I wont need a trainer forever. Who knows, once I go back to school for nutrition & I'm fit, maybe I'll become a personal trainer & dietitian. Who would have thought the fat girl in high school, middle school & elementary would even think about that as a career option. My sense of self is starting to change, I'm starting to not think of myself as that nerdy fat girl any more.
6 pounds to go before June 6th then it will a very happy 26th birthday, indeed!
I hope to get to the point sometime where the gym is a pleasure. More than being thin or fitting into "size-x", I'd really just like to be able to dance all night or play backyard sports without being winded and looking/feeling like a fool, ya know? Plus, I've always envied "runners-high" and wished I could achieve that.
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