Thursday, November 10, 2011

Doubt

Normally I am very confident in my efforts and ability to lose any/all the weight I set out to lose. But lately I feel myself doubting everything. I've been putting in hour long workouts all week, doing more cardio & weights, and I've lost 1 more pound sense my last post in October. I just find myself wondering if my efforts are enough. I don't want to quit, that thought hasn't even crossed my mind, I just don't understand whats going on with my mental/emotional frame of mind lately when it comes down to my journey.

I'm stronger than I've ever been, I weigh less than I did in high school or most of middle school and I can shop off the rack now.... I can also keep up with my 2 year-old son with no problems. I enjoy being physically active. Maybe I'm just concerned that the rest of the weight isn't going to come off no matter what I do. And I've been pretty lonely lately. And I really wish I had a gym partner. Someone that could push me to get better, stronger, & faster.

Or Maybe I'm just concerned that I won't lose/maintain well enough when I will hopefully be starting school in the summer. UGGHH!! I don't know, I just haven't felt this way about my ability to proceed in this ever, not even when I first started. Just frustrated...

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