Like a butterfly

I feel like I have been going through a process, much like that of a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. Or a silk worm turning into a moth. Which one will I be? I don't feel as danty & colorful as a butterfly, but just maybe as mysterious as a moth. They aren't brightly colored, but they aren't so "plain" that they aren't pretty either. They can be just as elegant, but maybe not as jaw dropping beautiful as a butterfly.

 And as this all may sound so corky... I can hardly wait until the me that is inside this "cacoon" emergies. I've never felt like "Myself" in my body, but as I've gone through this weight loss journey I see bits & pieces of her stairing back at me in the mirror. I really do feel that the excess fat I've been carrying around all these years is like a cacoon. I just keep peeling it back one layer at a time, one pound at a time.

Speaking of pounds, I did reach my goal that I set at the beginning of the week. I am now at 194 pounds. 10 pounds away from my "mini goal". 10 more pounds and I will no longer be obese by my Body Mass Index. While being 184 is a huge accomplishment for me it is still heavy in my mind that while I will be no longer considered obese by BMI I still maybe be obese by my body-fat percentage. The last time it was measured, by my personal trainer, I was at 36% body fat (that was about a month ago). I have to be below 30% to no longer be obese in any way, thats 6%, thats still a huge amount of fat! Thinking of that number is a little upseting, but at the same time it is hugely motivating. What was my body fat percentage 55 pounds ago?!?! It had to have been in the 40%'s!

On a positive note, I did buy a new sports bra today! Is it sad that a sports bra is all it takes to get me excited? Ha ha..